Hating this whole male friend thing.
Since we broke up
2 days till the day we started dating last year, and the happiest I’ve been in my life.
K. Time for heat/cold therapy routine, pills and sleep.
Fuck I just want to smoke till I can’t tell which way is up!!
"When you are attracted to people, it’s because of the details. Their kindness. Their eyes. The fact that they can get you to laugh when you need it the most."
Diary of a sick girl 10.8.13
Diary of a sick girl 10.7.13
Body went to sleep at the smoking area near the parking garage. Some random person helped me to my car after I slept there for a bit. Took 3 naps on the way home.
Mom helped me from my car. I’ve been in my bed since. My body like lead. My mind starts to shut off. Like I’m slipping into that coma sleep like last night… Fuck that. anger fills me, using up the little energy I have left.
No matter how many times people say they won’t take it personally when my health causes me to bail… As soon as their feelings get hurt, all of those promises go out the window.
And as much as I feel bad and wish I could change you standing out side my house calling me while I slept through it all….
I’m preoccupied with knowing that I may not wake up tomorrow. I want to cry it scares me to think what else I’ll fuck up and lose, sleep is winning. Here goes nothing.
My friend was was in town, came to pick me up this morning to go to this look out point. I slept through 5 missed calls and a ton of texts. It’s his birthday.
Went to get my boss lunch, got sick. Took too long. Feel like passing out.
Feel like I shouldn’t make plans anymore